Changes

I've avoided posting here for the last two weeks for several reasons: I was sick (evil spring cold), completely overwhelmed at work (crappy schedule + a ridiculous amount of apathetic students), and consumed with resolving the unbloggable situation. Two weeks later, I'm still not over the cold, still overwhelmed at work, and still consumed with the unbloggable situation. The only difference is that the US has now become slightly more bloggable.

No matter how many times I say this (I've already made the rounds to most of my friends), it doesn't get any easier... basically, the unbloggable situation concerns M and I and the future of our relationship. The resolution is that we are going to move into separate places once our lease is up (next month) and see what happens from there (we're not ending things - we're just not going to live together for now). Obviously, there's a lot more that goes into this, but I can't/won't air all of our issues in a public forum. I just never thought this is what it would come to after nine years together. :(

We've been discussing (and not discussing, which was another piece of the problem) the issue for the last couple of months, and finally came to the decision last Saturday. After that, things all seemed to happen very fast - I saw an apartment on Tuesday, had signed the lease by the end of the week, and spent most of yesterday sorting through things and packing. I didn't expect things to move forward as quickly as they did, but it just so happened that the apartment opportunity practically fell in my lap through a co-worker who lives in my neighborhood and is moving out next month (I'll be moving into his place a week afterward).

Needless to say, I'm not happy about this whatsoever; however, I have to admit that I can't even process any of right now. I'm too focused on the logistics of moving, everything that I need to acquire within the next month (bed, microwave, dishes, etc.), and how I'm going to pay for all of it (I'm woefully unprepared to go back to living on my own). Honestly, I'm trying not to think about any other part of it now... once I moving part is done, I know I'll have to go back to feeling and processing again, but for now, I have to block it all out in order to get through the next six weeks.

I'm not going to take an official break from blogging, but I probably won't be around here much for the next month or so. If inspiration strikes, I'll write, but I don't foresee it happening too much, as I will be consumed with packing (which sucks). I'll most likely still be active on facebook, as it takes considerably less effort to update a status than it does to write a full paragraph - if you don't know how to find me over there, just email me.