Okay, so the entire situation drastically changed once again (we're still on the f-ing roller coaster!). Yes, M & I decided to move into our own places and yes, I signed a lease and put down a deposit on a new place. I was all set and ready to move into the new apartment (although I definitely was not happy about it)... then came another serious discussion, which led to a change of heart and a new plan. Basically, the move is still happening, but with a much happier ending. Yes, we are moving into a new place *together*!
This is a huge relief for me, as I never thought it was a good idea for us to try to live separately after living together for five years. I know some of my friends don't completely agree with us continuing to live together after all of the craziness of the last two months (or don't understand what happened), but I have to go with my gut and do what feels right. We love each other and want our relationship to work... and that's enough for me right now. We still have some work to do on us, but I feel more optimistic about the future now that this has been settled.
We're moving into the same building I was planning to move into, but into a larger apartment than what I had originally chosen. It's smaller than where we currently live, but it's $500 cheaper per month! We looked at a few other apartments of comparable size/ rent to our current one, but decided it was worth sacrificing the space in order to save so much money.
I am feeling much better about life right now... however, sorting, packing, and moving still sucks.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Changes
I've avoided posting here for the last two weeks for several reasons: I was sick (evil spring cold), completely overwhelmed at work (crappy schedule + a ridiculous amount of apathetic students), and consumed with resolving the unbloggable situation. Two weeks later, I'm still not over the cold, still overwhelmed at work, and still consumed with the unbloggable situation. The only difference is that the US has now become slightly more bloggable.
No matter how many times I say this (I've already made the rounds to most of my friends), it doesn't get any easier... basically, the unbloggable situation concerns M and I and the future of our relationship. The resolution is that we are going to move into separate places once our lease is up (next month) and see what happens from there (we're not ending things - we're just not going to live together for now). Obviously, there's a lot more that goes into this, but I can't/won't air all of our issues in a public forum. I just never thought this is what it would come to after nine years together. :(
We've been discussing (and not discussing, which was another piece of the problem) the issue for the last couple of months, and finally came to the decision last Saturday. After that, things all seemed to happen very fast - I saw an apartment on Tuesday, had signed the lease by the end of the week, and spent most of yesterday sorting through things and packing. I didn't expect things to move forward as quickly as they did, but it just so happened that the apartment opportunity practically fell in my lap through a co-worker who lives in my neighborhood and is moving out next month (I'll be moving into his place a week afterward).
Needless to say, I'm not happy about this whatsoever; however, I have to admit that I can't even process any of right now. I'm too focused on the logistics of moving, everything that I need to acquire within the next month (bed, microwave, dishes, etc.), and how I'm going to pay for all of it (I'm woefully unprepared to go back to living on my own). Honestly, I'm trying not to think about any other part of it now... once I moving part is done, I know I'll have to go back to feeling and processing again, but for now, I have to block it all out in order to get through the next six weeks.
I'm not going to take an official break from blogging, but I probably won't be around here much for the next month or so. If inspiration strikes, I'll write, but I don't foresee it happening too much, as I will be consumed with packing (which sucks). I'll most likely still be active on facebook, as it takes considerably less effort to update a status than it does to write a full paragraph - if you don't know how to find me over there, just email me.
No matter how many times I say this (I've already made the rounds to most of my friends), it doesn't get any easier... basically, the unbloggable situation concerns M and I and the future of our relationship. The resolution is that we are going to move into separate places once our lease is up (next month) and see what happens from there (we're not ending things - we're just not going to live together for now). Obviously, there's a lot more that goes into this, but I can't/won't air all of our issues in a public forum. I just never thought this is what it would come to after nine years together. :(
We've been discussing (and not discussing, which was another piece of the problem) the issue for the last couple of months, and finally came to the decision last Saturday. After that, things all seemed to happen very fast - I saw an apartment on Tuesday, had signed the lease by the end of the week, and spent most of yesterday sorting through things and packing. I didn't expect things to move forward as quickly as they did, but it just so happened that the apartment opportunity practically fell in my lap through a co-worker who lives in my neighborhood and is moving out next month (I'll be moving into his place a week afterward).
Needless to say, I'm not happy about this whatsoever; however, I have to admit that I can't even process any of right now. I'm too focused on the logistics of moving, everything that I need to acquire within the next month (bed, microwave, dishes, etc.), and how I'm going to pay for all of it (I'm woefully unprepared to go back to living on my own). Honestly, I'm trying not to think about any other part of it now... once I moving part is done, I know I'll have to go back to feeling and processing again, but for now, I have to block it all out in order to get through the next six weeks.
I'm not going to take an official break from blogging, but I probably won't be around here much for the next month or so. If inspiration strikes, I'll write, but I don't foresee it happening too much, as I will be consumed with packing (which sucks). I'll most likely still be active on facebook, as it takes considerably less effort to update a status than it does to write a full paragraph - if you don't know how to find me over there, just email me.
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Morrissey!
We started out the night with an awesome dinner at a a new-ish Indian restaurant near the Aragon. The samosas were spicy and drinks were potent - a perfect lead-in to a hot night with Morrissey!
(click to embiggen/for notes)
After a short opening by The Corteeners (never heard of them before last night), it was finally time for Morrissey!
Yes, he's older and yes, he's less theatrical than he was back in the '90s, but he still puts on a damn good show! The only disappointment of the night (other than the annoying drunk couple in front of us) was that he didn't play my favorite song off his new album. Bummer.
As you can imagine, the crowd went crazy when he ripped off his shirt at the end of "Let Me Kiss You."
Of course, he ended the show with his trademark gladiolas.
After all these years, I still love a sexually ambiguous, defiant, hot British man (although my older & wiser self now knows to stay far away from any romantic entanglements with them!). :)
Set list:
1. "This Charming Man"
2. "Something is Squeezing My Skull"
3. "Billy Budd"
4. "Black Cloud"
5 "How Soon is Now"
6. "Irish Blood, English Heart"
7. "How Could Anybody Possibly Know How I Feel"
8. "Ask"
9. "I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris"
10. "The World is Full of Crashing Bores"
11. "Death of a Disco Dancer"
12. “The Loop”
13. "I Keep Mine Hidden"
14. “One Day Goodbye Will be Farewell”
15. "Seasick, Yet Still Docked"
16. "Best Friend on the Payroll"
17. "Let Me Kiss You”
18. "Sorry Doesn't Help"
19. “When Last I Spoke to Carol”
20. "I'm OK by Myself"
Encore
21. "First of the Gang to Die"
(click to embiggen/for notes)
After a short opening by The Corteeners (never heard of them before last night), it was finally time for Morrissey!
Yes, he's older and yes, he's less theatrical than he was back in the '90s, but he still puts on a damn good show! The only disappointment of the night (other than the annoying drunk couple in front of us) was that he didn't play my favorite song off his new album. Bummer.
As you can imagine, the crowd went crazy when he ripped off his shirt at the end of "Let Me Kiss You."
Of course, he ended the show with his trademark gladiolas.
After all these years, I still love a sexually ambiguous, defiant, hot British man (although my older & wiser self now knows to stay far away from any romantic entanglements with them!). :)
Set list:
1. "This Charming Man"
2. "Something is Squeezing My Skull"
3. "Billy Budd"
4. "Black Cloud"
5 "How Soon is Now"
6. "Irish Blood, English Heart"
7. "How Could Anybody Possibly Know How I Feel"
8. "Ask"
9. "I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris"
10. "The World is Full of Crashing Bores"
11. "Death of a Disco Dancer"
12. “The Loop”
13. "I Keep Mine Hidden"
14. “One Day Goodbye Will be Farewell”
15. "Seasick, Yet Still Docked"
16. "Best Friend on the Payroll"
17. "Let Me Kiss You”
18. "Sorry Doesn't Help"
19. “When Last I Spoke to Carol”
20. "I'm OK by Myself"
Encore
21. "First of the Gang to Die"
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